personal

i don’t understand myself

i don’t get why i’m so emotional over everything

i’m so stupid

book smarts don’t count

they won’t get me anywhere out of school

if you can’t get along with people then you’ll just..die

i’m the only one who isn’t enjoying this.

everyone else is having fun when i’m cooped up on the computer stalking them. cept not stalking, reading. why did this have to happen now? why can’t i just get along with people? why do i have to be so sensitive? why can’t i just accept things? why does this have to be nearly my entire life? why can’t i just be normal? why can’t i make friends with everyone and be happy like i used to be? i hate myself, i really do.

i go onto facebook and where do my eyes go first?

**** and six other friends are now friends with Tyler ****

you did that just to piss me off i bet. good for you.

omg, yes

stephanie. you screw me over. and you don’t even care. i bet you’re confused on what to do but you DON’T FREAKING CARE. you like maisie better, i know it. I KNOW IT. and you’re secretly planning for him to run off with ariel and they can run off together like we were supposed to do. AND WE HAD JUST STARTED DOING THIS TOO. i deserve for that to happen cos of what with mafee and all, but still. you already got me back for that. SO DON’T DO IT AGAIN. but you are. and this isn’t fair to me, not at all. i know, life isn’t fair, but whatever. it’s not now, and i hate it. i really wanna reply but i can’t. i just can’t. why can’t i stop worrying about this? why can’t i just have the courage to leave? i want to so badly. SO BADLY. but i’m too chicken not to. i know somewhere in me feels like i don’t want to, but still. i hate this. i hate myself. i hate being so sensitive and wanting to cry all the damn time. over the stupidest things too. and you know, this was why i dropped out. i knew it was going to happen and i was trying to prevent it. i don’t say this a lot, but you annoy me by this SO MUCH. i’m done.